Waiting For Your Return

Autor: lisasimpson
Haupt-Charaktere: Jack/Irina
Handlungsplott: Jack und Irina treffen sich nach einem Jahr wieder
Spoilerstand: 3.Staffel, bis zur 2.Folge
Status: fertig
Rating: PG-13
Last Update: 04.11 2003

I'm nervous. Today I will meet Jack. The only man I ever loved and I will always love. I'm looking on my watch. Thirty minutes.

Please let him be here soon, I'm thinking to myself. I still can't believe that I'm going to meet him. I thought I would never see him again.

One year ago I thought I was seeing him for the last time. He told me to be careful and went away, but I saw another thing in his eyes. I saw love in them. For me and especially for Sydney. He also begged me to look for Sydney.

The whole 12 months, maybe 13 months, I looked for Sydney, but found nothing. I thought I would be going crazy. I knew at this time she was alive, but I couldn't find her. My heart told me to look for a way to get Jack out of the CIA or wherever he was and have a normal life, but my mind told me I shouldn't give up on her.

It was a horrible situation for me. I ate nothing and the whole day I stayed in my office and worked or stared at some pictures on my desk. One picture was our weeding photo. We looked so happy. I tried to remember whether I loved Jack when we made this photo. I couldn't remember. It doesn't matter, because all I know is that I'm loving him right now.

Another picture was my little family. Sydney, Jack and me. Sydney was three years old. It was our first family vacation. We went to Florida for two weeks and every day we were at the beach. Jack was a good father. He played with Sydney the whole time and they laughed all the time. Almost every day I watched the sunset together with Jack. Life was perfect. I never thought it could be, but at this moment life was perfect.

Now, I'm sitting here in my chair and I'm waiting for Jack. Twenty minutes.

The last time we talked he told me he missed me. It was the first time for over twenty years that he told me something like that. We worked together for one year, but he never told me anything like this. I can't describe what I felt at this moment. I had strange feelings. In this moment I wanted to tell him that I love him and I wanted to hold him, but I also wanted to scream at him because he left me.

Ten minutes.

I'm staring at the wall and I'm wishing he would be here at this moment. Not in ten minutes. Now.

Then I'm seeing him. He's wearing black. He had never an idea how good he looks in black. It was his colour. He walks in my room and stares at me. He smiles almost shyly at me.
I want to tell him how much I love him, but I know that would be too much for him and he would leave. Truth takes time. Instead I walk towards him and hug him. At first he does nothing but then he returns the hug.

"I've missed you so much." "I've missed you, too Jack."